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Moving Out

2009-11-05T02:45:30Z

i have moved to blogspot.... follow me at http://laney-j.blogspot.com/

new found loves

2009-09-25T10:44:41Z

CAKES
I have been obsessing about cakes like crazy this past few weeks. It started with my sister talking about her cravings for all sorts of cakes and wanting to work at a bakery so she can eat cake everyday. What a fatty! hahahha although I'm pretty sure nothing will ever make her fat. She is one of the lucky ones...lucky Bi*ch jk. I love you Ate!

So I finally discovered my favorite bakery here in Sacramento. It's a Swiss bakery called ETTORES (which me and JJ still dispute about the pronunciation). It's like an upscale Panera since they also serve food, but the cakes are to die for. I can stare at them all day. I wish I could taste each one of them. Maybe that'll be my weekly goal hahah fatty self talking.

Unfortunately, I can't find my blackberry cords to upload the pic I took. So I'll settle for this for now...

*READING BLOGS*
i love reading especially witty real life writings. Nothing too serious nor shallow. I admire writers who can put their point across in the simplest terms yet entail such deep meanings in their writings. I enjoy reading about thoughts on everyday situations that can happen to any of us. Smart writing doesn't always have to involve politics, latest technologies, public policies, or school regulations. Sometimes, we find the most meaningful messages in ordinary happenings.

shoutout to superbianca, and all the blogs I read while I was at work today. Truly inspiring.

*FARMVILLE*
I know i know...it's addicting. forreals (my new favorite word btw hahah)
Plus, since I am done with school, I have more time on my hands hence this obsession. One of the biggest reasons I'm investing so much time and clicking into this is because I want to buy a villa (what a loser dream hahaha). 4 more levels and I'll have my dream villa.

here's my farm...I couldn't take the whole thing cz farmville camera is in obsolete status right now.
but I promise my farm is super nice!

*IMDB*
I love reading about movies especially the trivia section. I was reading upon Made of Honor the other day, and I discovered that this movie was actually shot in London in spite of the New York story setting. I guess because New York is such a busy town; it's almost impossible to shoot a scene during normal hours (see Vanilla Sky).

Rachel McAdams auditioned for Invisible Woman in Fantastic Four but lost the part to Jessica Alba.

In the movie There's Something About Mary, the part where Ben Stiller gets dropped after his zipper incident while being carried into the ambulance was not part of the original script. It was actually an accident, but it was so funny that the director decided to keep it.

Pretty interesting don't you think? I think it is...

*VINTAGE CLOTHING*
Lately, I've been buying clothes with semi vintage prints. For me, it's something quirky and different. With my style, I prefer mixing the old with the new, modern yet traditional. I love walking contradictions! When I get more shopping money, I definitely want to visit some vintage shops to get more pieces oooh and boots! I want some more leather boots.

random note: smooth seas do not make skillfull sailors

nostalgia

2009-08-24T09:51:41Z

GOD i miss the Philippines...

too bad embedding is disabled...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qCQSswtwVSc

such a great clip-freestyle and side A are among the best bands

Random Things

2009-08-16T21:46:10Z

i woke up this morning thinking how different i am...hahahha i actually spent a good amount of time thinking how unique i am from the rest of the world. so i decided to write some things about me that set me apart from the rest of the world. (that sounded conceited in a way..oh wells)

1. i hate being in the theater watching a super good movie and i have the urge to pee. i was watching 500 days of summer and as soon as the movie began, i had to go. I held it for a while but after about 40 minutes (yes i held it that long) i had to leave. stupid bladder.

2. I like purchasing products that support a cause.

3. I can never say no to someone who asks me for a small donation to help the unfortunate even if it was my last dollar for the toll. if i say no, i feel like i'm going to commit a sin.

4. i hate how the media isn't giving much attention to how the end of cheap oil is coming very soon.

5. It saddens me how much money and time have been spent on my education and my bachelor's degree, and I still feel stuck/stranded/JOBLESS (not exactly). post college in this present time sucks balls.

6. My biggest pet peeve are lazy people and inconsiderate people who think of only themselves.

7. I can't believe how f up society is. So much people are suffering. So much poverty in this world. Solutions are easier said than done.

8. Freedom is the greatest thing a man can have. But it's unfortunate how that same gift can ruin us. We have been given freedom and free will...but did it really help us in the long run? I am no supporter of a dictatorial way of life, but I fear how the world will become for my future kids.

9. I am a sucker for Filipino telenovelas...or maybe telenovelas in general.

10. I've never read a poorly written fictional book. at least not in my opinion.

11. I've never feared the future as much as I do now. I fear I will not have the life I've always wanted. Call it superficial or an influence of my couch potato behavior, but what's wrong with wanting a lavish life? of living one...

12. someday I want to be a celebrity or just appear on TV. hahhahha i think about it sometimes

13. Old couples always bring a smile to my face. After all those years of hardship, arguments, misunderstandings, romantic dates, flirting...thay've managed to overcome.

14. Someday I want to have 4 kids-twins, boy and girl.

15. Being with JJ has brought me closer to GOD.

16. Coldplay is my favorite band of all time. I saw them in concert last month, and they were awesome! Call me HUWYT wateber

17. I spend a lot of time thinking about the past not because I miss my past life. I do miss some of the happy days, but ultimately, I like to think about the past because it makes me appreciate the present. things are better now.

18. I can be very insecure about my physical self. Sometime JJ covers his ears so he doesn't have to hear my whining.

19. I love vegetables and fruits.

20. I've realized the importance of organic food, yet I haven't bought any organic food.

21. I am very drawn to anything Paris (the city, not Hilton). I like Paris portraits, Paris inspired things...I have never been there, but I feel at peace when I come across these things. I never realized this until JJ brought it up when we were in IKEA while I was admiring a Paris photograph.

22. I am for mushy, lovey dovey, cheesy things for the sake of being romantic. call it corny, but sweet things never fail to bring a smile to my face.

23. I hate drugs. it upsets me when the people who I care for the most involve themselves in it even if it's just for RARE recreational and social purposes.

24. I like coffee shops. I like the smell of coffee beans and the feel good music. I like having deep conversations in coffee shops. i think the environment sets the mood.

25. I get starstruck when I see celebrities. hahahha. i know they're just like the rest of us. but it makes me happy knowing that Usher brushed my shoulder with his or Cuba touched my hand. hahaha

26. I like the number 8 because for me it represents infinity.

27. I hate loud cars.

28. I like taking scripted pictures. I like taking lots of pictures in general. For almost every out of town trip, I take an average 400 pictures. Camera whorerable.

29. I dance by myself a lot.

hmmm...haha

30 more minutes!

2009-08-07T00:10:43Z

today I am getting off early! yay...i like thursdays...i don't have to get up super early for my 9:00 shift and I get to be home before 6pm.

today I'm going running with JJ cz im ultra jealous of his body...i just don't have the patience for working out. Plus being consistent is such a challenge...but working out with someone really helps!

hmmmm i just had the urge to write something since my laptop at home is still charger--less...MOMO!!! ugh

You Gave Us Freedom

2009-08-06T01:29:19Z

President Cory Aquino died August 1, 2009

-your departure has certainly brought sadness to millions of people worlwide

thank you for your courage and for being a great inspiration to all of us...you will be forever remembered in our hearts.

Global Icon of Democracy

I wish i was there to witness such unity you bring even after your death. Good thing for TFC, all of us who are far away from home can take one last glimpse...we will truly miss you

Thank you President Cory dahil ipinaglaban mo ang nararapat!

dos tres

2009-07-07T02:53:55Z

gosh i feel old.

5 years ago, i was the little girl dressed in pink with a matching pink headband who swore on never cutting classes and being drunk out of my mind...

hahaha. i guess it's true when they say CHANGE is the only permanent thing in this world, at least for the most part. research: long term immaturity.

so in light of the whole new year, i decided to write this entry about realizations i've had in my growth stage...

1. I've realized that true friends are hard to come by. We may go way back or go through a lot, but this isn't the real test of friendship. True friends stay with you no matter what. They don't merely listen or follow your status updates. They let you know frankly if you're making a fool out of yourself. Loyalty is essential. Plus, true friends aren't like submarines who appear and disappear whenever they please.

2. I've realized that no matter what I do, I will never master playing video games. I suck.

3. I've realized that when a guy doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit.

4. I've realized that the ex, the past love will never be forgotten no matter how happy your are in the present. After all letting them go was the first step of obtaining happiness.

5. I've realized that some things never change no matter how many years may pass...AND some people never change either..

6. I've realized that courting is important. Being courted feels pretty damn good.

7. I've realized that no matter how modernized and liberated people have been, I can still be very traditional about a lot of things.

8. I've realized that one of my biggest pet peeve are lazy people. It bothers me to see others not do anything at work.

9. I've realized that I have wasted so much time on facebook- stalking, playing games, commenting, "browsing" , and now, I'm addicted to restaurant city.

10. I've realized that it really does pay to be on time. I need to be more responsible to avoid unnecessary hurdles.

11. I've realized that it is very important to have a core group of friends that does not include your significant other.

12. I've realized that pondering on an impossible "what if" is a complete waste of time...YOU WILL NEVER EVER KNOW SO JUST LET IT GO.

hmmmm...that's all I can think of for now...haaayyy now back to work

P.Y.T

2009-06-26T23:03:09Z

June 25, 2009 2:26pm - rest in peace King of Pop

I heard the news at exactly 3pm just in time for my lunch, and I thought it was all a joke...

I still can't believe he died. At some point, I actually thought it was one of those Tupac accounts...

I was never a fan of Michael Jackson because the time I was immersed in the music world was the time different controversies about him surfaced. However, I do admire his influence in the music industry. He certainly makes my top 5 icons in the music world together with elvis and sinatra.

"it's sad how you left this world so early and so sudden...but now you get to moonwalk in heaven"

youtube addiction

2009-06-21T06:48:27Z

im addicted to youtube..
hahah

i've seriously spent hours on this site, it's ridiculous. this is why my sleep cycle has been so messed up. I seriously stay up till the wee hours watching covers, soap opera clips, and just random funny clips. ok this sounds pathetic...

on other things, i went shopping today! i used my gift card my future mother in law gave me--hahha. but as usual i overspent...goodness. i need to stop spending money on makeup and clothes because i have summer tripS to save for--it's awfully hard--this is why i stopped working at the mall. i have the tendency to be a shopaholic.

i am very pleased with the things i bought if that compensates for the guilt. i think im in love with estee lauder now hahah.

so before this post turns into a shopping one...the main purpose of this entry was putting my favorite video of the day. i saw this as one of the previews to "the proposal' and i really want to watch it. I heard the book was good, so I'm going to try to read the book before this movie comes out.

"im falling apart
i'm barely breathing
with a broken heart
that's still beating"

pink balloon

2009-06-16T06:43:54Z

yesterday i had a mini photo taking session with a balloon hahhaha. this had boredom written all over it...

"i'm listening to the same songs you're listening too...coz it's the closest thing i can have of you"

the graduate

2009-06-16T01:54:33Z

after years...after my super senior status..i finally graduated! wohoooo i am now a communicator by profession as my boss puts it hahah. I was meaning to write something yesterday after the ceremony but i had a little get together at the house i needed to prepare for. i had a very eventful day yesterday. starting from my 3 hour sleep from cleaning the house, getting to a super jam packed town, and to almost losing my tassel, to the unexpected professor hugs, to the many many flowers, and to the hours before my grad thing--it was one of the craziest. thanks to my family (the best chefs), my lil loves for pumping my pink, white, and black balloons, my baby jj for being my official photographer, and my closest friends. you guys made my day 100x more memorable.

although i wished i was more aggie spirited, i'm glad the day has finally arrived. this college journey just took longer than it was suppose to. however, it kinda sucks that i've never been to our gym and i've only gone bowling once in our games area hahha. it's ok. i can still go since i'm going back for the summer.

i never thought i would say this but...i miss davis. i started out hating that campus, but now that it's over...i kinda miss it. i don't miss the back to back midterms, the never empty parking lot and the long walks and bike accidents, but i do miss the atmosphere. i miss the serenity at 10am when the majority are in classes. walking through the field made me feel very scholarly. walking through the halls made me feel like i have substance. haha is this dork status right now? but just going to davis made me feel as if it meant something great. i'm in no Ivy league, but sometimes, during those random thoughts filled day, i felt worthy. haaay maybe it's just the post graduation feeling....

nonetheless...i am happy beyond anything and i am thankful for each and every one who shared this special day with me.

lastly, this one is for you mom. MYMP baby!

CONGRATULATIONS UC DAVIS CLASS OF 09!!!!

so long blackberry...

2009-06-12T02:52:58Z

ohhh yeah...my phone got stolen again...goodness i have a curse...forreal grrr...this is the second phone i've lost this year and it's only june. haaaay now i need to save up for a new one cz im totally in love with blackberrys or maybe grad gift? ahem hahaha

*i think i've lost a phone more than ten times in the course of 6 years...eeek stop it!*

uno mas hour

2009-06-12T02:20:05Z

im stuck at work again and i'm missing the game! orlando better win. they have homecourt advantage for goodness sake (oooh sake bombs hahah). cmon turkulu and howard--you guys make such a great partnership hahah.

so im finally done with final!s woohoo so long spring quarter..now one more class in the summer and im going to be an official bachelor's degree holder yay. i thought i was taking the last finals of my life but my stupid adviser didn't check my units, now im four units short (one frickin class!) oh wells just suck it up for 3 weeks (i mean what choice do i have right).

on good things, i'm finally graduating on Sunday! after so long...so many setbacks but here i am. this one is for you mom. i know you have been waiting so long and here it is. MYMP baby!

Greys and Rockets

2009-05-15T02:19:49Z

ok so today I had a pretty crappy day at work. besides the long lines of students that reached the end of the building, people's attitudes have been bursting left and right....stop it! get over it! we all have our days...making me upset will not make you feel better. I hope you go to sleep feeling guilty hahha (forgive me)

im so glad this day is almost over. I'm so exhausted. I feel like I have been talking nonstop about financial aid, GPA, completion rates, taxes, income for my whole shift--crazzy..and it only gets worse...wait till August (save me)

I'm so looking forward to going home. I can't wait to watch Grey's Anatomy season finale! i hope Izzie doesn't die. I will seriously be in tears. I was for the 100th episode when she got married to Alex--so sweet even though the Alex's vows were semi borrowed from an injured graduating student. I actually feel a little bit scared that she might die no matter how fictional her character is. I guess that's the test of a good actress or maybe a good storyline: To create such an effect that leaves its audience in such a mystery, that it affects their day (or maybe it's just me) well whatever...im anxious!

ooooohhh and lakers versus rockets today! Rockets jamon! beat them kobe people hahha. I want to be proficient in the basketball world--language, acronyms, rules, teams, etc. I think it would be the coolest thing. to be a dude's girl--I'm going to work on this for this year. I should learn football too, huh? nah...one sport per year hahha.

*40 more minutes*

trust issue

2009-04-29T22:29:44Z

after almost a year and a half..you still don't trust me.

what the f is up with that?

red cheeks

2009-04-09T17:36:56Z

the priest said that this is the most important week of the year. Whatever you do this week will define the rest of the year...

after all the arguments and misunderstandings, me and jj have finally (or at least are close to) resolved our issues. it's still not all perfect and dandy (it'll never be), but I'm happy that things are starting to get brighter for us. We indeed went through a bumby road for the past months, but I have a feeling that everything will begin to smooth out...

we had dinner in a nice restaurant, and there were definitely sparks...

my baby's back! and we're stronger than ever...oh holy week... sana nga tuloy tuloy na ito.

impatience...

2009-04-03T23:42:55Z

i can't wait to graduate...(this is my new broken record line)

i can't wait to go back home (after six long years)

i can't wait till i get my dream high paying job

i can't wait to be debt free

i can't wait to move to l.a

i can't wait to have my independent girl pad

i can't wait to get l.v, gucci, chanel, prada purses

i can't wait to own my first pair of jimmy choos

i can't wait to find true love... (new or rekindle the flame-->doesn't matter)

goal: to wake up one day and feel COMPLETELY content

enough

2009-04-03T23:18:58Z

i'm tired...i just don't know if i can still go back.

whatever i do and say will always be wrong to you anyway...so what's the point?

maybe we do need time apart to grow up...let's stop wasting time and energy and let this love go...

frustration

2009-03-27T23:57:14Z

so this lj thing has been freakin annoying because I can't seem to choose the layout I want...i mean the choices are limited. I kinda wish it were like myspace where i can choose my own background and text color. I generally enjoy pimpin out my page...but when everything is set....its now getting frustrating.

i don't why I care so much....i mean i prolly only have 3 readers bwahahahah. this whole online community as an extension to oneself is really getting me.

but aside from my frustrations with lj, work is starting to become annoying. I'll post an entry for that once I get home cz there's several inner screams innapropriate to display in my current location (front counter) hahaha.

*take me to a land of free purses and a closet full of jimmy choos*

missing so cali..

2009-03-25T02:31:17Z

last March 19, i flew to so cal to visit one of my best friends in the whole word (hahha exagg ba). I stayed there for four days spending money left and right. I am now officially broke (great). Moreover, in just a few days, spring quarter will start. i guess i need to start getting into nerd mode again. ugh

as that dreadful day approaches, i reminisce about the time i spent there. ever since my freshman year, I've always wanted to move to so cal. Despite of the traffic, the growing population and pollution, and the non stop bashing my sister has for this place, I can truly see myself living there. I love the almost endless summer weather and the city life. Sometimes, I think the media is a big contributor to my attraction to this city. I have always admired those busy independent l.a girls rocking chanel and louis v's as they get through their 8 hour shifts. I always tell myself: "That's the life I want!."

Plus, knowing one of my closest friends lives there makes the city feel more like home. It is rare to find someone who you can share your deepest secrets with no hesitation, and who can put up with your endless ranting and "can't make up my mind" days. She is truly like a sister to me. And Abi might move there (fingers crossed), so that fact strengthens this decision even more.

Graduation is coming soon (fingers crossed again)! Finally, after all those years and major changes, I get my chance at the pedestal. Also, I can finally go home to the Philippines. After six long years, Motherland here I come! hahahha. I'm planning to stay there for at least a month. After that, it's job hunting for me (nervous thoughts while fingers still crossed).

I am uncertain about my future...but 2 things will stay permanent: love for family and friends & finding LOVE

pinkberry and yoshinoya here i come!!!

look after you

2009-02-09T01:13:44Z

i love this...just wanted to share...

he's just not into you

2009-02-07T17:59:04Z

‘You already have one asshole. You don’t need another.’

“Calling when you say you’re going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can’t lay this one stupid brick down, you ain’t never gonna have a house, baby. And it’s cold outside.”

giggly

check out my bling bling

2009-02-07T17:49:32Z

it's a saturday and im at work.

it isn't that bad actually because our system is down and there's practically nothing we can do...so for about 4 and half more hours ill be sitting here waiting for time...i know that sounds pretty ewwness but i mean sh*t overtime...hahha

so me and jj haven't made up yet. i don't know...i just don't think we'll be ready for a relationship. i mean if we can't get the basic stuff squared away...then what's going to happen when a ginormous problem comes our way.

i know that last night was a bad one. i was just annoyed about something that i myself don't even understand. hormone stuff maybe? but anyway here's the point: school is important to me. YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT. i've had my share of school setbacks in the past...i mean that's the reason why im graduating so late. but the thing is, the reason i had those setbacks was because i couldn't afford to go to school, and it's not like a unit per quarter cost 50 bucks...you have the privelege to go to a university for free, and here you are taking it for granted. if you continue on this pace...how long am i suppose to wait until we have our own place and start bulding our life together? if i could afford to move out right now, I would. I would love to sleep in a room with insulation and carpeted floors. I want to have my own kitchen and bathroom that I can decorate according to the season or holiday...but as of now, i just need to be patient...i just need to put up with my living condition so I can pay off my debt and start fresh....with you.

ayoko na maghintay...alam mo naman kung pwede lang ayoko tumira dun...pro ganun talaga eh. kaunting tiis. pero parang binabaliwala mo lang...hindi mo naiintindihan yung pinagdadaanan ko.

laney is ugh

2009-02-04T22:32:46Z

so my 2 classes have been cancelled today and as much as I want to go home...i freakin can't! bakit why??? cz my english class at 440 always has homework due and I have to be there. sucks huh? but I guess it's fine besides its existence keeps me from not cutting class.

so anyway...why the ugh? well its just been a great big blah these past two days because of the whole thing. it just saddens me how things just turned out this way. there i was deeply in love and thinking that this may be the one, and here i am dissapointed. I just wish we could both work things out. i know that it isn't that simple since we refuse to level with each other. I have no idea on what else to do to make you trust me and to assure you that it's ok to let me go. as much as you deny it, i have made a great deals of sacrifices to make this relationship work out. I give you all my free time, and I have put aside the most important people in my life.

before you came, i was a train wreck. I have told you countless of times my past experiences. During those times, my friends were the ones i ran to. they were the ones who provided me shelter and the much needed support. and for me to put them aside because of a new relationship I am now in is a big deal.

I don't think you'll ever understand. everytime i bring this up you always want to push me away. You remind me of my selfishness and numerous misinterpretations. i am fully aware of my flaws and my shortcomings, but as much as you say that i don't care as much...i do. i have turned my back away from my friends and my family just to please you. My family is getting jealous of the amount of time I spend with yours. what saddens me the most is you fail to see all of this.

is it always going to end up this way? when will i ever be good enough?

you are hands down the best boyfriend I've had, but this trust issue we have and the fact that you demand so much of me is too much. you are trying to control me beyond what i can handle.

you have no idea how much I want to call you and just make things better. it's just that this has been an ongoing issue that can't be resolved with a simple talk.

i miss you....i love you

pink_laney @ 2009-02-01T09:42:00

2009-02-01T17:43:08Z

in about five months, i'm finally graduating!! yey. hihihi. the thing is, i'm just worried on what's going to happen next. with how the economy is right now, I'm not quite sure if ill be able to secure a job right away. i have all these ideas on where I want to work, but I haven't really set my mind on what I really want to do.

after my birthday, I'm definitely going back home for 3 weeks to about a month. it's been six years; it's about time. (fingers crossed-->because i've been telling myself this for years now, and I just can't get myself to go)

see I want to work in a broadcasting company, or something to do with production, or be in a devil wears prada kind of job without the bitch of course. If i have to move, I would. I know its either gonna be in the bay or down so cali. However, if i do move, i can't help think if my relationship with jj would suffer. He says it's gonna be 2 more years before he finishes pharmacy. we've just been together so much that it's hard to imagine being away from him. I mean we used to see each other literally everyday. if i could still afford my own apartment in natomas, we'd probably still be doing the same thing. hahah

BUT THEN...

i worked yesterday to help out for a foster yourth program, and I was talking to this girl named Cara and how she graduated from Davis years back. we were talking about the budget crisis, and I mentioned my concerns regarding what I should do after graduation. a few minutes into the conversation, I thought about joining the Peace Corps. I've always thought about it in the past, but I['ve never actually taken it seriously. as cliche as it may sound, I do love helping people especially those who aren't as fortunate as the rest of us. During my senior year in school, I participated in an outreach program wherein I had to teach children in depressed areas Religion. It was every Thursday for about an hour and half . Being able to help others, and seeing how those children looked up to me always left me feeling like I was a mini Mother Theresa (ooohhh exagg ba? hahah) but seriously though...i felt like a renewed person.

so I looked up the Peace Corps online, and it said that I would have to serve for 27 months. During that time, i will be able to receive vacation time, but it did not specify how long. Plus they pay for your living expenses and fare. the biggest downside of it all is: it takes an average of nine months for the application process. After the 27 months, you are awarded 6,000 and whole new better you that has definitely made a difference in this world.

SO SHOULD I JOIN??? ugh...i don't know yet....